if I could wave a magic wand I'd want to be alone
Id want to be alone on an old crumbly gravel road
And id want to be alone at the far very end of it
Where nothing begins and everything comes to die
Where everyone comes to lie
if I could wave a magic wand id want to be alone
on top of a hill in the middle of desolate land where everything's flat and Thunderstruck where no droplet of rain has shown its face in millenia
if I could wave a magic wand, then id want to bleed and die on the dirt that gave birth to me I'd only want that piece of land to pocess me and everything that is mine
TIll the last droplet, till every last bit and I want to die brave
I want to die a warrior a lover a father and do all his creations justice
And id want to die a murderer
to everything that's feral and vile
I'd want to die and I'd want to die alone
if i could wave a magic wand id want to be holy
I'd want to be alone on top of a throne
inside of a church a place of worship
and I'd want to be good
if I could wave a magic wand then I'd want to be everything that I'm not
if I could wave a magic wand then I'd want to be loved
if I could wave a magic wand then I'd want to be loved
For i hate to be alone especially right now
if I could wave a magic wand then I want to be in someone's arms not just being held but also holding them in return
and if I could wave a magic wand then i might let the people that love me
TELL ME that they loved and I'd let them in
Id let them tell me how much they care about me
if I could wave a magic wand then I'd be a part of something and let that thing engulf me and ingest me and digest and absorb everything that is me and mine
Till every last drop till every little bit and then create something more
something beyond
But if I could wave a magic wand then I would not ever wish for that thing to be holy
for id hate for it to be anything unattainable anything that's not human
unlovable
if I could wave a magic wand then I would wish that thing endless forgiveness and love and I'd watch it become the thing that it wants to be and nothing else and nothing more
if I could wave a magic wand i might be able to remember I am love and nothing else
and that before love there was nothing else and after love, there wont be anything left on this planet Earth
at the very end of this old dirt Road
there'd be nothing else
and if I could wave a magic wand I would climb on top of that mountain and scream at the top of my lungs so everyone can hear me
even if that's the last thing that I'll ever do
that love is the answer irregardless of who's there to hear it
Witnesses it
for it's not just a theory a thesis question
it's only the answer
and only you and I can bear witness
for if we could wave a magic wand
There won't be any questions left to answer
and the answer will always be
Love
And at the top of my lungs it will always be
Love
And even under my breath
In painstaking whispers
Even if it is the last thing I'll ever get to say
The answer will always be
It will always be
Love,
And love, itself
And i promise
It will be
Nothing else.
BS
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