I stare at my addiction in the face
Like she loves me
Like a long lost lover
Like she wants to fuck me
Over and abandon
Over and under
Twice on a Sunday
Like she knows me
Who i used to be before
I'm so high
Tipsy and buzzing from nicotine
I feel so foolish right now
Wanting to be alone
When in a crowded bar
Wanting to laugh
When everyone else is sombre
Wanting to cry at weddings
At people's birthdays
Wanting to cry everytime I come
Wanting to cry everytime I've made eye contact with a pair of breasts
Wanting to die
With a lung full of oxygen and a gut full of caviar
I feel so foolish.
From time to time.
Especially right now
Hiding behind a mic.
I feel like I'm a chuckle
In a library
The week before a major exam
I feel like I'm a threaded string
In a perfectly tuned guitar
Ready to snap
Ready to shiver
And fall on top the musicians lap
And i light up and smoke
Staring at everything that's important to me
And i fantasise I lose it all
It's so easy
And it's only sad because I don't want to
Lose it all
It's too easy
There's money in my bank now
I'm just tired from the long hours
I tell her
I'm just tired baby
Look, there's money in the bank now
And this?
Oh it's nothing
It cost fuck all tonight
And it cost even less the last
Funny how easy it is
To think that you are fooling anyone else
But yourself
It's too easy sometimes
I stare at my addiction in the face
Like she loves me
Like a long lost lover
Like she wants to fuck me
Over and abandon
Over and under
Twice on a Sunday
Like she knows me
Who i used to be before
I stared at my addiction in the face
Like into a mirror
That shows a moment in the past
Years ago
A Sunday morning I had to crawl from my garage into the kitchen to grab some water
My pupils had collapsed from being overly dilated
My vision was blurry for the next 12 hours
See i don't mind a room temp lager
I order a pint n let it defrost
Let the glass drizzle
I want it warm
I taste the hops more that way
I review beer on my instagram
I gave a pint of Guinness poured at the Cornish Arms a 3.75 out of 5 and I'm still copping abuse from my friends for it
I stare at my addiction in the face
Like she loves me
Like a long lost lover
Like she wants to fuck me
Over and abandon
Over and under
I love getting high
Till I feel low
I wonder what it does for me
And I'm concerned it's nothing
I stare at my addiction in the face
Like she loves me
Like a long lost lover
Like she wants to fuck me
Over and abandon
Over and under
I'm not any better on it man
I'm actually worse
And it's my brother who's the crackhead
Not me
But this shit
Playing with life on thin ice
I'm like a limping penguin
A skinny seal
A hairless polar bear
I'm not even a bear anymore
I think this is unbearable
It think takes everything away from who i am
I think it'll take everything away from me
Everything that I am
Everyone that i want to be
I stare at my addiction in the face
Like she loves me
Like a long lost lover
Like she wants to fuck me
Over and abandon
Over and under
Twice on a Sunday
Like she knows me
Who i used to be before
BS
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