after all

If only i could hug

Hugs you with my arms

And maybe share your wounds,

I can carry the bullet holes on ur knees

I think i can get away with it

I have an empty spot there

I dont have any knee tattoos

If only i could cry

For you

Innocent children

Little boys just like i once was

In your helplessness

You dont event cry when you are being interviewed

And worse of all, you smile

When asked about the future, you say you want to eat some sugar one day

Before your friend cuts you off

He would much rather get to see his brother alive again

If only i could love you

Darling human

You loving soul

For you are also someone's child

I wish i could shake your hand

Introduce myself to you

And then maybe we can talk

And share stories

I promise, ill do most of the listening

And i can gently push the barrel of your assault rifle off your hands

If only i could not feel

And suffer

Not think of you

Before i fall asleep

And when i wake up in the morning

If only you and i weren't the same

If only you were angels and demons

If only you were saints and villains

If only you were dragons and giants

All things mythical and biblical

If only so was I

If only we didnt know what we are doing was wrong

If only we werent human

After all